Feelin' HOT HOT HOT!!I'm feeling lazy. Just finished dinner about an hour ago; we barbecued and ate 1kg of pork between the 3 of us (omg)! Gotta love korean pork though. Feeling completely stuffed and content, I've been lazing on my couch once again, under the air conditioning. It was a bloody hot 37 today, and another sultry 36 tomorrow. GRR. I sympathize with my derivative friends who have to do their exam in the sweltering heat tomorrow. Here I am, eyeing my Strategic Marketing notes, contemplating whether to start studying. My mind is willing, my body is not. The thought of pulling out pieces of file paper and a pen to write notes is simply off putting. Perhaps its the weather, or just my general mood. Negative emotions make us grumpy, harder to please, and quick to anger. Whilst being temperamental is not my usual trait, little things tend to set me off these days. What do we have to look forward to? The future seems bleak right now.
Everybody is congratulating me about graduating next month - is it really worth congratulating? My 15 year career of being a student is suddenly cut short; the everyday role of a student is to go to school, follow a set routine that changes every year, abide by scripted behaviour. All of a sudden, that is snatched away, and we are at a crossroad: turn left for your graduate working career, turn right to travel to your hearts content, go straight if undecided. When will I pass Go and collect $200? Can I hang around free parking for longer than I want to? We all want to get to Mayfair or Park Avenue some day, but we have to go through Kent Road to start with, and then Trafalgar Square, and Oxford Street before arriving at our final destination. We may land in jail at some point in time, and have to roll a 12 to get out. Some of us can pay our way out, others take a little longer. This waiting process is a good time to review our lives and identify the gap between our desired state and current state. Isn't it funny how a simple boardgame played from young depicts our lives so accurately?
It's probably the heat thats getting to me, hence all the rambling. Or maybe I'm subconsciously avoiding passing Go. The final obstacle between now and graduation is the Strategic Marketing exam. I guess that's why I'm not motivated to study it - my procrastination kicks in full force this time. I'm pondering sleeping on my couch tonight under the air con; it's still stinking hot in my room. ARGHHH. I hate the heat. It makes me loopy.
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