The heart races, the hands shake, cold sweat breaks out on the forehead. Thoughts of service quality, satisfaction drivers, propensity to complaint, and gaps floating throughout the brain; one would pray it remains inside somewhere, and can be retrieved at a drop of a hat. The regret of not starting earlier surfaces, but is crushed with confidence of last minute cramming, which has become a norm, a status quo if you will, in this household. Everything in my life is done only when it is absolutely necessary, often just minutes before the due date. Time management skills are learnt again and again, and understood perfectly - well enough to teach others, but not practice what we preach. It seemed to have gotten worse throughout the years. As graduation looms ever so close, the motivation levels fall even faster. Is all this studying in an attempt to attain a decent grade, and then going through a search for the ultimate job, really worth it? Will all the knowledge gained in these few weeks be remembered post-exam? Rather unlikely, so why do we put ourselves through the cramming process?
Labels: a moment of clarity (or panic?)
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